I am not! sleeping!
and I am not!! going to!

fucked up. can nothing.

want nothing. dream about everything. dream about happy and wealthy life.

dream about loving relatives and perfect friends. only two of them - forever. Да, Васькинс, сейчас, в пол-четвертого ночи - я увидел...
Какой же я глупый, все-таки... Прости меня...

I aint typing something... all the thoughts about the future. as the clever said, no need to think about past - it is already past. no need to care about future - it only will be. you need to dedicate yourself to the present. and you'll cope with everything.